as i was sitting in the doctors office for the second time in a week i begain to really wonder about my life and where will it lead me in the end.i am a 48 year old guy active,good looking but haven't been feeling well for a while.i first find out that i have tremers in my hands which i just really noticed a few months back,not really fearfull of old age as well as death i was more concerned about what i would not be able to do down the line not being able to be an active person to see people all of a sudden ride those little go carts as i call them  around and a round and around.i hear people coughing in the office as wll as outside the building knowing that its breast cancer awarness month and god know what else.i not real sure at this moment where i am heading with this but  for someone who has seen death and seen many friends and family die it makes me wonder why we as human everything we touch or build we destroy or over use because of selfhness to stress us  read more »